Lady Jane

True beauty, in my view, and my view i say is simply my opinion, my ow3n observation, but true beauty is always a little “off” somehow. There is a feature that is not “quite right” and so very often, true beauty will not appeal to the masses the way that conventionally pretty does (read: jennifer aniston).

Julianne Moore is, in my view, truly beautiful, as is Kate Winslet, but neither is really “big time” in that way, and i think that is because both are slightly different – not mainstream enough. The same is true of most “beautiful” men – ie, brad pitt. he’s fine, i see it, but not my cup of fur, you know what i mean? I’d rather see Chris Cooper or even Philip Seymour HOffman or Anthony Hopkins any day because they have true character and to me, that is part of what defines beauty — character, not these blank and expressionless clones that are slammed on magazine covers month after month offering up the same bland and boring looks and the same flat abs (read: no curves, not womanly or feminine – yuk! i’d rather a woman with some curves, frankly… ).

Look at these same women ten years ago even; they all weighted at least ten to twenty pounds more than they do today, and that’s pretty sad. since when did emaciated equal attractive? where was i on that day? i mean, i’ve been very thin most of my adult life and FINALLY after YEARS of being really sick and UNDER weight by a lot, i’m finally a normal wieght and have curves, tits and hips, etc, and thank god! i’m so grateful for it, yet when i go into the Gap i feel enormous, like i should be ashamed to be a size six, or god help me, if i want my jheans baggy, and i DO, a size 8 (horrors!). I also have a bosom to match, and that much seems to be widely accepted, yet mine are real, not fake. If i had stayed sick and a size 2, as i was, i’d need implants to look like this — rare is the woman who looks like that and has a thirty-six C that is natural…. you get the point.

So thank god for Julianne Moore who isn’t afraid to show her beauifula nd womanly body nude in films such as The End oft he Affair – she’s an inspiration. I saw her when i was going through cancer and was a tiny little thing and all i could hope was that “one day” when i “grew up” and became a real woman, i used to joke, when i wasn’t so sick anymorek, i wanted to be her size (she’s about an 8), and have curves and boobs and an ass to match, all toned, yes, but never ever will i want to look like Jennifer Aniston or Paris Hilton, who, imagine when she’s fifty what she’ll look like? LIke a piece of old mercedes benz leather from all the fake tanning.

Ugh.

I’ll keep my lilywhite skin, my tits, my hips, my full size 6, my eight, my weight, my saturday date and a man who wants something to hold onto when he makes love and doesn’t want to come away with bruises from some woman’s pelvic bone. Owww!

sorry to drone on… and this was only human beauty….

s.r.p.